The Power of Details

Audrey loves the details of the above photo. Especially the innocent eye sights of this little cute creature. Someone taught me the great power of details. It creates a detail stunning photo, a perspective that people seldom notice about it. However, when it comes to pulling out the detail memory of each incident from the brain cell. Perhaps, it creates more pain when we're sad. Everything has its cycle. There is always a root resulting in what we have today. That's how our thinking affect everything surrounding us.

Falls

We may fall sometime when we fly high. I believe each fall makes us stronger. Audrey won't fly high but would take some rest to fly further. let bygones be bygones, Love yourself & learn to take care yourself before learning taking care of other. Gonna take some rest early.

Believing

Neighborhood

Audrey had a peaceful day at home yesterday after going to bookstore purchasing some books for improvement. It makes me think back of the past a lot after some reading and promise myself to be out of the gossip zone. The neighborhood is relatively small even with the influence of internet and facebook. The world has turned to be smaller than we can imagine, yes, It is globalization. It takes too much of price to make Audrey realize gossiping is actually a circulation. The moment we involve ourself in the gossiping circle. There is even higher potential to be the gossip subject one day as the people surrounding us are like that too.

我哭了

我今天又哭了,可是我很确定眼泪并不是为任何人而流。它是为了让花朵开得更美而流的。那是因为我听见了一些自己最近领悟到的东西，感触而流的。。 Audrey到现在还不敢相信，那么的一句话会在心里这样的说出来，还在回家途中一个人傻笑了。。也许我长大了吧！其实说真的，我的心还满痛的，我好希望他能够真正开心过生活。我还很心痛自己那么的笨呢！当时的心情故事呀！

轻松了，以后就别提了。:D

You're such a wonder friend

A: Thanks for caring me. You're such a wonder to know this year. afterall, not all bad things

come to me

B: What! You just get to know I am wonderful? LoL

A: I always know but I am not wonderful enough. If there is not much things happened, things

would have ended up so much different.

I came across a little note saved from msn conversation with a friend last year. I really appreciate that this friend appreciate my care but things have changed. At least, Audrey has understood lotsa things now.

No more one sider story ya!

Feeling Lucky!

Audrey is feeling lucky today and something comes to her mind. It's due to the letting go and there's 2 more persons filled with happiness in this universe now, isn't it? Of course, It would be more than 2 which is included his closest relatives and Audrey's family member who see her crying almost weekly. God does love her, he gave her more than what she let go in return. Even though there is some unhappy rumors out there, she believes time will tell the truth. People who trust one side story, perhaps, they have forgotten to look at the matter fairly. She can only face it bravely and smile. She still has friends and mommy who support and trust her. :D

She didn't make a wrong choice to get the brand new hubby yeah! What a happy incident! Lucky! ^^

Life is Beautiful That Way

This is another favourite shot of mine. ;)

It was locked by you

Audrey attended a seminar during university time, the speaker said we used to speaking and talking darely whenever we were still children. We dare to perform without much fear of being critic. As time pass by, the shield become thicker and greater self-protection due to some negative comments or falls. I do believe that, I am not sure how to break the thick shield to escape out from the window anymore. There are too many things happened lately. The shield is getting thicker and thicker.... Perhaps, It's even harder to break it right now.

Life is Beautiful That Way

I really love a song sang by Noa recently.

Smile, without a reason why,

Love, as if you were a child,

Smile, no matter what they tell you,

Don't listen to a word they say,

Cause life is beautiful that way.

I am not sure the positive thinking is a way to comfort myself or a way to lie to myself. At least, it is a way to make myself happier. I am glad it changes my perspective to see things in life. Too much of hurt to be borne for not believing in myself. I wonder why do I believe in the word he said but didn't believe myself to perceive things by his action? Silly me!

Life is beautiful that way when freedom to make decision is in our hand. It's a good experience, I see things differently through my view finder. :)

You're Beautiful That Way

I believe what makes a difference is still a pair of detailed eyes! That's the window of our heart. It doesn't tell lie unless we are great actor/actress. The statement is regardless to the above photo, it is just something to comfort myself while I was taking the photo with my new hubby. :)

Day 8

It's day 8, I read an old book and had some really different perspective towards it after having some bad experience in relationship compared to the first time reading it. I fell asleep for quite a long time after the reading, What a restless months for me lately, it's mainly due to work and relationship. There is more understanding on verbal abusive and how to handle it positively. Let's do some experiment if happened to have some chance again. Of course, I don't wish to be scolded like that daily till I am afraid of sharing things. It's better not to happen again. At least, 3 of us are living happily and having what they want. It's not a bad choice though. :D

I gotta test out my brand new husband with my friend. I hope it wouldn't rain. Have a nice weekend everyone!

It's day 7

It's Day 7, We seperated a week. I started to get use to life knowing that I am not in someone's heart anymore. I did enjoy those moments having someone in heart and wondered how is he doing now. Knowingly, I am in his heart too. This is some sort of connection and trust between both lovers, especially when both are busy with own works. I think this is sweet. Anyhow, I am glad to get use of it in Day 7 and start focusing on my work without any worries of making someone angry again and over again.

Lost in Life

We may have a lot of things in life but we lost no where.
Greediness could blind us, dignity lost somewhere.
We may see a lot of great smiling faces in life but we hardly find a sincere smile.
Materiality took away another sincere smiley face.
It creates another lonely soul in the city.

It's day 6, my senior told me today, trying to smile even you couldn't! It's important in communication. I think this is what I couldn't do when i felt provoked. My expression is just like a book of describing what's inside me. How silly! I guess I need some training on this! We were laughing outloud during that discussion, wouldn't it be too fake? We pondered. hehe, Nevertheless, she said it's a good way to solve problem and find solution by smiling it away or leave the place. It's always a great idea to be calm in finding solution.

Guess what! I smiled as I work today. It's from bottom of my heart! I just found I have understand a lot of things. Well, It's a great training ground. Each great fall of my experience drive me to be a stronger one, not forgetting the great advise from some mature friends. I would never be another lonely soul in the city again! :)

I did appreciate of what I was given with love out of good intention but...........Hey, there was always a little angel voice in me scolding me. That's where I lost my smile and hating myself. Anyhow, I am glad it was all returned. This would be the last photo from it. :)

Day 6

It's day 6, it's another calm and deep pondering day, Any wild guessing on what's topic today? A friend told me about relationship is trying to understand your partner's feeling, thoughts & actions for your whole life. The relationship would last long and even forever but there is exceptional situation. I realize there are many that I did wrongly, too emotional of the negative statements from partner perhaps. I don't regret to let go though. Mr Lobster said it correctly, Lost & Found is just beside each other. The more you lost, you may be surprise that you've found even more than lost. As for what I have lost and found, that's too personal to spell it out here. Audrey can smile from bottom of her heart, I misses her smile.

It is linked to another statement I read in facebook, you have nothing when look at what you've lost but you have everything if you look at what you have now. I just feel it is meaning when I read it through. The feeling is totally different when you have gone through it. Stay tune! for my new series of work! I will be back for photography end of this week. :)

Day 5

It's day 5, we have seperated. I have always imagined that he must filled in happiness now with her. I am a bit confused whether I shall be happy for him or myself. She is indeed my lucky star, i ponder after waking up from dream. He is in happiness, wouldn't it be great? :D